Pieces from the desk of Lori

(This was the big day in Aug 2009)  The wig looked terrible.  How could I have loved it so much when I bought it?  What was wrong?  It was not hanging right, seemed so flat.  We were minutes from walking out the door to go to church and this last step of putting on my...

Luke 12:7  "Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered.  Don't be afraid;  you are worth more than many sparrows." That verse has taken on a whole new meaning for me today.  Let's just say there are way less follicles to count.  My hair is now leaving in...

(end of August, 2009...) My hair is abandoning me.  Leaving my head as fast as it can. Not even willing to stick around for the second treatment.  I'm not sure how to handle it.  There's no plan of attack that I'm comfortable with.  Do I cut it super short or even...

"Look Good, Feel Good," was the class I had signed up for at the cancer center.  There would be instruction on nutrition as well as how to take care of your skin and hairless head.  The session was to include a free bag of make-up and a free wig,...

We had our blinker on, ready to pull in to a prime parking space when all of a sudden a man jumped into it saying, "We've been waiting a long time to park here."  Where did he come from?  It was all very odd and frankly, a bit maddening....

I never imagined this day would be an event in my life.  Eddie was driving me to my first chemotherapy treatment.  I felt like I was going to be sick just from the thought of it.  Again I asked, "How is this happening to me?"Upon arrival, the...

The room became a frenzy of motion minutes after making the decision to have chemotherapy.  My doctor was whipping out notepads and rattling off instructions like nobody's business.  He was ordering lab tests and writing out multiple prescriptions while...

(...my cancer journey... cont.)"I hope you are writing these things down.  You've never been funnier."  This was the response of one of my closest friends as I shared with her the enormous depth of grief I was feeling.  As trivial as it...

When I think back over all the different treatments I've had, I shudder the most at the thought of internal radiation.  It was the one procedure that all four of my doctors agreed was necessary.  My main referring doctor had described the procedure as...