My mind is just way too over-active.
I’m a 6 on the enneagram, which means I have a lot of unproductive thinking going on… aka… over-thinking, over-analyzing, over-fretting, over, over, OVER!
I’m over it!
All these years I thought I was such a deep thinker, but in reality, I’m thinking about all the wrong things so much of the time. My thinking easily turns to worry.
No wonder faith has been such a struggle for me.
Faith is believing and taking the next step, even when our thoughts would dictate otherwise.
That’s why I write so much about taking the next step. It’s an honest to goodness daily battle for me to keep going and not overthink all that could go wrong.
A few years ago, I had another small surgery for a confusing recurrence of cancer. Talk about fighting to control my thoughts against discouragement and gloom and doom! It became this pursuit of how do I walk in faith to overcome a foreboding sense of hopelessness?
How can I go through this well? And by well, I mean, how can I walk with Jesus, leaving the results to him?
A dear friend called me one morning during this unknown journey, and said she had been praying for me, and God had given her a picture of how to pray. She said when she prays for me, she envisions a comforting picture of me walking with Jesus, like a child holding her dad’s hand.
THAT has stuck with me.
I rely on that mental image to manage my thoughts toward faith, replacing anxiety-filled thinking with thoughts of walking with Jesus.
Holding the hand of Jesus!
As a kid, when I held my dad’s hand, I felt safe and secure. I just needed to hold on to him as he led the way.
And he always enjoyed being with me.
Isn’t that a beautiful picture?
As we hold on to Jesus, he leads the way. He brings security and protection.
He enjoys being with us!
Jesus loves us,
He even likes us!
As I am finishing writing this, I’m seated in the back of a classroom where Olivia is taking a homeschool class. One of our friends is watching her little sister right outside the door, and I as I look up, this is what I see—
Maybe this is a more accurate picture of how we walk with Jesus— holding on, stepping where he steps, and enjoying the ride.
Isaiah 42:6 (TPT) says it this way:
“I, Yahweh, have commissioned you in righteousness to succeed.
I will take your hand in love and watch over you.”
I’m praying for you! Praying you enjoy the presence of God as you walk through the hard things of life.