My doctor had ordered an ultrasound as the next test following the CT scan, to collect more information. In medical terms, it is a sigmoidoscopy, which is a fancy way of saying rectal ultrasound.
Now you understand why I am choosing to simply say… ultrasound.
This particular test had to be done at Stanford and required a liquid fast the night before (as well as some other unpleasant prep instructions, of which I will spare you the details).
The afternoon before the ultrasound was super busy, and I missed my last opportunity to eat something, which was okay, sad— but okay. That evening I was attending the recital of our good friend Jack Wilkins. I JUST have to mention his name because one day he WILL be famous and remember, you heard about him here first! Hah!
But seriously… he’s an amazing vocalist!
Following his performance, there was a celebration including an all out taco bar. I couldn’t believe it.
I was so hungry.
I missed my last chance to eat.
And… MEXICAN FOOD!
Realizing it would be in my best interest to slip away, I went to find Jessica to let her know I was leaving. Of course, I found her in the food line with two other friends who in unison said, “Why aren’t you eating?” Talk about adding insult to injury! How could they not remember my plight?!
I waited a few seconds for it to click, and simply said (as I tried not to stare at their heaping plates of food), “I could make you feel really bad right now.”
“Guys. I can’t eat tonight, remember?” They felt sorry for me- which always helps- and I made a quick, silent exit leaving everyone to enjoy their food without me hanging around pouting.
It was a long night of drinking super yucky stuff and no sleep. At one point Eddie took a sip of the yucky stuff and reported, “That’s not so bad.” I wanted to slap him. A sip is one thing, 32 ounces is quite another!
We left for Stanford the next morning, allowing 2 ½ hours to get there and park. I was hoping the extra time would encourage Ed to drive the infamous highway 17 at a slower pace.
Didn’t happen. We arrived in record time!
Walking toward the hospital we passed a lady who looked familiar. I took a few more steps passed her, and then it hit me. Calling out her name, she stopped and we had a moment to catch up. She was undergoing quite a few tests and the doctors had no explanations to offer. My heart went out to her and I promised to pray.
After checking in, we were in the waiting room when my referring doctor from Santa Cruz came out to say hi. It was great to see him, and he was super reassuring. This is the same doctor who, 5 years earlier, had broken the hospital rules and wheeled me out of recovery without permission— with a nurse hollering after him, “You can’t do that!” He had even swung by the staff lounge and loaded me up with all kinds of snacks before delivering me—wheelchair, snacks and all—to my get-away car.
The procedure was fairly uneventful and I was ready to go home. Ed, however, was nowhere to be found. The nurse finally reached him after several attempts, and hanging up the phone said to me in an asking-sort-of-way, “He’s visiting someone in the hospital?”
I had no idea who that could possibly be. He had not mentioned anyone.
Finally, he showed up and began telling the story of sitting outside eating a salad when he saw our good friend, Judy, walking by. Pastor Ray, her husband, was a patient and Ed had a chance to see him and hear what was happening in his life.
It would now be a waiting game for me until my doctor could analyze the two tests.
Earlier that morning I had received an email from my good friend, Rhonda, who is someone I totally admire. She said a lot of amazing things, and ended it with this encouragement:
Jesus says, “I am the restorer of all things you feel like you’ve lost.”
I have faced some big losses in my life (my mom’s early death, infertility, cancer), but through all of them and even BECAUSE of them, God has restored my faith more than anything.
I Peter 1:1 says, “To those who through the righteousness of our God and Savior Jesus Christ have received a faith as precious as ours.”
THAT is what has been restored to me. A precious faith.
My emotions still swing all over the place, but bottom line…
I trust Him.
It’s a precious faith I have received.
And, speaking of things being restored…guess where we stopped to eat on our way home from Stanford that day.
As in… Fresh Mex.
“The restorer of all things you feel like you’ve lost.” Hah!
Chevys!! Yes! Lori, what a beautiful and precious faith you do have! I admire you and continue to marvel at the ways God uses all of these things in your life! You are awesome.
You KNOW I think of you whenever Chevy’s is involved! YOU are awesome and I’m believing with you for God’s provision in your life. What a miracle-working, tender-hearted Father He is!
Hi Lori, I’ve been reading all of your blog’s, and I cry through every one of them…you are such and amazing woman…such amazing strength to be going through all you’ve been through and are going through! You are truly a woman of great faith! I admire your strength and faith and your love for God and family.??
Karen, thank you for reading and following my journey. My strength isn’t really so amazing, but I know where my strength comes from.Thanks for the kind words and may your faith be encouraged today!
Lori, I love your blogs! Believing for restoration in your body!
Thank you, Jody!
As I read your blog ,I became a little homesick. You mention so many familiar places. It only draws my heart in more. Lori , you are a beautiful writer. Your stories revisit me through out the day. I think of you and say a prAyer. Mona sends her love. She moved to Minnesota last year.
Thanks for following my journey, Anna. Please say hi to Mona for me. Blessings.