It was a long, sad walk back to my car from the cancer center. I know all the promises in God’s Word: all things work together for good, He will never leave you nor forsake you, etc. etc. (I wanted to write blah, blah, blah but thought that was heading toward might-get-struck-by-lightning-bolt status so I opted for etc, etc.). While all those Bible verses are true, at that moment I was just very, very sad. My body was physically reacting to the sadness, making it hard to breathe. I must have been quite the sight as I walked the construction obstacle course back to my car.

Between the gasps and tears the one thought I couldn’t shake was —

I am in desperate need of prayer.

It was a sense of urgency. I need to ask people to pray for me in spite of the not so glamorous area needing prayer! And even more than prayer for healing or God’s direction, I wanted prayer for my emotional well-being.

I have fought against fear before (you can read about that here) and it can be an exhausting battle. Our words matter, both spoken and thought, in the fight. The way I talk to myself is a key weapon to winning the mind skirmishes. And… the words we speak fuel the inner self-talk, whether positive or negative.

A few days later I was at a Bible study sitting around a table with four other ladies. Each one was asking me for an update and I heard myself answer with a guarded hint of faith and a BIG dose of doom and gloom. As the evening went on, I felt such conviction for how I responded. Here I was, the leader of this small group, and I was leading others toward doubt and discouragement.  And furthermore, who am I to question God?!

I am SO blessed! How could I NOT trust Him?

I’m alive today because He healed me.

I’m a mom because He chose me.

I’m married to THE kindest man because of God’s kindness to me.

WARNING: This is about to get preachy for a moment. Just know I’m preaching to myself more than anyone else.

There’s a verse in the Bible that says, “…take ships as an example.   Although they are so large and are driven by strong winds, they are steered by a very small rudder wherever the pilot wants to go.”   (James 3:4 NIV)

The whole verse is comparing the tongue to a rudder.

Wherever the pilot wants to go!

Where do I want to go?

Deeper in faith or deeper in fear?

I MUST pilot with my words, spoken or thought, TOWARD faith and away from fear.

This song is where I’m living these days. Don’t leave this page until you’ve listened.

http://https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XxkNj5hcy5E

Sermon over.

Pass the offering plate.  Hah!

 

 

 

 

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